In Passing
How swiftly the strained honey
of afternoon light
flows into darkness
and the closed bud shrugs off
its special mystery
in order to break into blossom:
as if what exists, exists
so that it can be lost
and become precious
~ Lisel Mueller
July was never meant to hold Thanksgiving. There is no room
for it, with its abundance of warmth, sunlight, adventures, and leisure time
with loved ones. In fullness there is no space for gratitude, for depth of
gratitude comes with loss. It seems to be the way we work.
It is therefore fitting, and right, that Thanksgiving has
been placed towards this time of year, when even the sunlight, though it may
still seem abundant most of the day, takes a cooler slant, seems a little
thinner, warns us, almost, that it could go at any moment. Time is spread too
thin – it is practically threadbare at the elbows. And hours are filled with
doings and workings, so that, even if our loved ones are near, it seems we
hardly see them.
In days of old, we would have had harvest-consciousness at
this time of year. Working hard to collect the fruits of our labor, and (if a
good year) celebrating the abundance. But just beyond the celebration of
fullness lie the barren fields, the abandoned tools, the chill in the air, and
the whisperings of winter death. It is the loss that makes everything precious,
and stirs gratitude from the place where things matter. It is the loss that
reminds us cyclically that nothing is permanent, everything a temporary
gift.
I am grateful that my daughter is able to receive an
education centered in that place where things matter. I am grateful that she is
guided by teachers, songs, and rituals that honor the preciousness of life and
spirit. I cannot take it for granted. And it is this gratitude that comes to my
mind as we prepare for this year’s Lantern Walk.
It is called a Festival, but it is of a different sort. The
exuberant energy of May Faire, when life is bursting forth in blossom and
color, is transformed at Michaelmas into a last huzzah as we brace ourselves
for the coming darkness. As we approach Lantern Walk, this energy withdraws
more and more, readying itself for hibernation, donning its reverent cloak.
Lantern Walk, as it is visualized by our Sanderling
community, has two equally important components. First, we are invited to come
together to create a sacred space through our sharing – of bread, cider, soup,
and warm friendship. It is a time just for this – to stop and see one another,
and to share with one another in this small escape from the comings and goings
of our lives. And second, within the comfort of this sacred space, we are
invited to share the experience of facing that which lies just under the
abundance – under the fullness of activity and chatter that fills and forms our
daily consciousness. We are invited into silence. Into darkness. Into mystery.
We are invited to demonstrate to our children how to offer reverence back to
the wonder of Spirit that sustains us. We are invited to learn from our
children how to walk into great darkness with innocence and a humble light of
our own making.
Let us walk with gratitude together. For just a few hours,
let us forget our judgments and dissatisfactions. Let us forget ourselves, and
stand with quiet courage, humility, and reverence with our children in this
space that is offered to us. Let us not take this day for granted.